First of all Alhamdullilah everything went well , yesterday had open house for all relatives but sadly most of them didnt turn up...but things went well.... thanks to Cik Lin fr helping and my mum,you've been great! (:

this year, its been more of a admitted and committed year..
-admitted to hospital for my belove dad & grandmother. Well its a tough job to be strong and being for them at the same time facing all kinds of attitude, especially old folks, but it's okay, that... we have to go through no matter what. everyone and every child will have to face that, when their parents get old, and its our responsibility,well.. i the firm attitude i have, was observed from mum, and being commited was taught by mum (:
-committed,i have to committed with house chores and stuff, as my mum faced enough problems,and as a older sister ,daughter and first child.. i have to help in anyways...its my responsibility to help out anything has got to with family, and that will help me prepare in the future.

well,right now, in hospital,acute stroke ward,accompanying my dad,its super worrying for us(mum,brother&me) he can't think too much or worry,or else BP goes up. it all happen because of me.I did something and got angry and there goes the BP. im really upset with myself.and all i could yesterday for meeting him the last time at home was to just prepare the food,mum ordered for open house as my dad didnt had the chance to taste and write a small note for him saying im sorry....well the repsond i had from mum, was he kept quiet and teared.i was worried at home,and i could just pray hard,i hope alah, will help us through and give each of us the strength we need throughout.

i reached here at about 12 just now, and i salam my dad, and hugged,i teared feeling that i regret being a rascal . My parents faced enough trouble from me and brother. so we should really be a grown up. so ya... im trying my best to change and be a responsible daughter and a young adult(:

okay enough of myself and whats about my dad,it just makes me feel very guilty and i don't want to cry in front of all patients here, super embarassing and haha! it'll be awkward .

kay lah thts all lah ... you young people out there, appreciate your parents never let them down and always respect them, love them and never leave them before they leave you..

i love you parents..

sucks!