All i can say is...things i wished and hoped for, was not meant to be....


Taking turns will never harm your life!


Please be initiative!


Thanks alot for helping!

Been busy for the whole week back and forth to bedok and hospital.A day off would be fine with me,yes saturday and sunday,well...that's because im not feeling well....thanks (:

missing school much.meeting my friends.going out early morning just to meet my love(: Holiday was abit boring but fine. The best part of this holiday, i have a taste of being a nurse to my grandma! cool kan?? (: okay lah, nothing much to handle,except for toilet breaks.pufft

Very much waiting for saturday the 4th sep to come soon,cause that's when i get to bully my bestfriend and have a night out with him(: kan idra? hahaha(: Much to plan about.Also waiting for 3rd sep to come too!! (:

Been breaking my fast at hosp, trust me i also feel like a patient? but better food,had to think of a different menu everyday,can be boring without fizah there, i will always wait for her to come after work.

Had no idea why should we argue when we can just let it go.im sorry short cake ):

what ever,im excited for saturday serious!!!! i miss you short cake! want to meet you soon.

i miss idra,short cake,my cliques,everyone...!!

kay lah take care kay?

As i said things are going too fast, so here we are today at KK hospital, waiting for my belove grandma, everythings going just fine....Glad me and mum reached early to see her, because right now she's at day surgery, and there's no way i can see her until the whole op is finished. a relief though....

Two weeks of holidays finally started, not much of plans, will be busy at hosp i guess.Just a plan with friends. At least get to wake up late , no school!! on saturday, i overnight at my grandma place, two of my cousins were there, including my auntie,for the first night i was there grandma was still at home, the night i left not sure how granddad managed his sleep, cause grandma was already admitted. im sure he's strong,but the sad part was, he always had his side on bed and place to sit at dining table, side to pray, but instead he do everything on grandma side...i couldnt hold back my tears but i had to. well.... pray hard yea...

A plan with my friends was to actually break fast outside,idra my long lasting bestfriend,was told that we're break fasting at geylang,very high class and legendary place to spent.But its okay.im sure it'll be fun.. (: right now just waiting ya, half way texting syg.. but it's okay, im sure he's already at work...take care syg, he's very sleepy,but he have to hold on...take care syg.. i love you lots (:

Today the saturday, all of my cousins and aunties and uncles will be gathering at grandma house for breakfast.we'll all gather and make sure we are there for her,even if it will be the last time.Doa selamat will be organized.

Monday will be the day my grandma is going for her operation, diagnose of cancer.i hope everything will be fine and nothing comes in the way. im very sure god is always by her side and supporting her.All she have to do is be strong and have faith,no matter what happens our family is there waiting for her outside.

As for granddad, heard that he wants to accompany my grandma,but he is not able to move about always or he'll have his blood pressure high.but we'll try our very best to bring him there and see his beloved wife. i know everyone of us is in a tense situation, but im very sure all this happens for a reason.

All im tryingto do was,to get myself to recover from my irritating flu, high fever and now that is getting worst is my sore throat,i have a man 'voice' ...not!

Holiday started, already scheduled my plans, obviously for the first week,will be accompanying my grandma in the hospital,and maybe to sleep over there .Also to clear the house and get kuih stuff ready,apparently this fasting month pass by fast,not as always was, so raya is like just a week away,but for now, not in the mood yet.

exams are coming, study but nothing goes into the brain, distractions everywhere.Sad to say i even failed my SW test,when i never had problems with SW.

kay,just waiting for syg to wake up, and talk to him... wake up soon honey!

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life saviour!!! thanks sayang! (: 2 bucks added!

things around not been great,worries everywhere,compromise.oh god,please help us ):

i can't a solution to us,but i just hope that,things will be better,had no idea what's wrong..but am i at fault?..things been questioning in my head,but you see it? no...

about friends,having problems that they are not comfortable with me.so am i too rough? too open? too exagerate? tell me at least, don't just back off like that. Never mind, maybe one day a right friend that can actually suit me will come to me . just hope that its not too long to wait.

im jealous to look at you with what you have now.but all i can do was to shut my eyes from looking at those.I know im not as free as you,but sometimes,i already have the chance with me,but it wont happen.thanks for the encouragement you've given,seems like i'll just have to keep on waiting...hmmm...

am i part of the group? am i considered as the book worm too? or am i jsut disrupting you guys? tell me...

Much to update...

Last 3rd was the 13th greatest day ever,but didn't spent it well.late for school but its worth it,i hope the next time,it'll be a good and better hang out.Im sorry dear,but hey,we've made it.All the way dear. I wonder when will we start having a ring on our fingers? long wait heh? (:

Fasting month is coming,a wonderful month that every muslims are looking forward to.what more the month after that? much more exciting,green packets! but thats beside the point.it's okay, get yourself clean and pure and this coming wednesday onwards(:

Been waiting to have a pair of high cut show of my own.Almost had one but,my mum didn't make it happen.Another long wait i have to endure. *sigh* But i do believe that if i wait , i'll get something better.hmmm,no choice but have to wait.


Things in school are going more and more awkward,as i was observing how the group is going around.But it's okay right...i mean things happen for a reason.But not sure if things will go back like it used to be.And im sure,we could've compromise but instead we turn our faces away. Okay.. this is all up to you,but im just a friend there,nothing much i could do,i thought you make it looked like it was my fault that we're not together.but whatever it is, i guess you've found someone new. a new friend.thanks btw.

Things are like going out of hands.Im sorry . im lost,im positive im lost.I just hope things will be better and our friendship won't tarnish just because of a guy.haaaa...it's very difficult though.

im out of words.bye