Today my other grandma will be coming with my 'used-to-be-close' uncle and another uncle. visiting my nenek and datuk here. hari raya dh abis lahh.


haish bored at home still waiting for they 'fig&olive' manager to call back.bored.hopefully get uh.working from morning to night as told.nvm as long as i get out of this house.hahh! my earnings.


kk really bored now.listening to songs only =/. 'menarik' jgk.fine !

chiow

takecare,bye
LOVES
AFI-KAYAA 842**

right. sad that i have to give up my room to grandparents , but its ok ill be sharing rooms with my brother =.='. alamaaaak.

today cleared the whole room and shift stuff in,tired.well.thinking how troublesome it was.i dig out almost everything , and found lots of memories.how i wish i could turn back time.but nvm

kk i im running out of words.numb with sorrow still in my heart.

kk dh

take care.bye

ahh !! right, now every thing's messed up, grandparents shifting all of a sudden, why does always things nowadays happen all of a sudden??

have to be patient and wait..nvm

taking things easy and slowly ,i try

thing's happen for a reason,i guess..

kk fiqa, keep your self strong and easy,ill try..

k dh...

I dont understand, and i'll try to. I'll try to takes things slow, but hard to. It's too shocking, my heart pumps deadly.Cried too much, chest pain's back.i hold it back, but it gets harder. i will suffer and wait,for you forever. it's been a long time with me, why dont you try, to leave it alone just like that?my background? they're trying real hard to be good. and i believe that. dont judge a book by its cover.


asked mum, what would she felt if this happen to her, she said dissapointed. thats exactly how i feel.mum consulted me , but no change.mum said it's ok,i can't. it is me? or the guys...i know it is a very big reason. i can't.the night before, i thought of you and wondered if we could still keep in touch and still be there, but yesterday it just happened. is this sort of premonition? how i wish i dont have those, cause it hurts, when it really happens, it hurts more. its true and it really happened!

i tried alot to calm down and give it a rest but i guess it was too strong.all sorts , doesn't work!i kept thinking bout it, cause its just so hard, asking my self, did i do anything wrong?did i loose your trust?am i your burden? did i did i did i, thats the only thing in mind.& laid of to sleep at 2.30 with tears covering my eyes.didn't feel well yesterday and today. can't eat due to chest pain.mum knows i want my time but need to refrain myself from going into my room, cause in that room, there's alot of memories with you.

went to doctor this morning,cause had headache and migrain &&couldnt stand my chest pain. doc said , cant eat well due to it,not think too much. but i can't its sooo hard you see guys, if you were me, y'know how it felt .why would i ever have this chest pain, please get it of me.now is already 2pm and not eaten anything yet or drink , i cant stand the pain. no appettite, too sore too eat.

all i know is i just miss you buddy.i dont want to loose you. i really can't this all happened too sooon.i'll never forget you or even erase you from any of my mind.and im serious.

always
I LOVE YOU

talk to you real soon.
i miss you forever.
ill think of you every seconds.
i just can't take the part from you.