kay alot of bad things happen recently aite, im not blogging much as either i can't use the com or can't be bothered.first of all, congrats to AFS competitors yesterday who went up for the challenge and make us proud, aysraf,me,ganga,jayvan and iza(: and special thanks also to the supporters; desmond,zi ying,kelly,wen yi,fredrick and if i missed out, thank you guys ! :D...


now's the bad part.yesterday i had a big ugly fight with my own parents it was very ugly, i never behaved like that towards them and i felt very very guilty, it was something i wanted to have but end up chaos.i didnt know who was taking over me, cause i was not myself, it always happen when im angry.i can remember very clearly even if im angry or sad or watever, i dont show and behave like a total another person who my friends dont know.dad told me himself that if i were to get a big scolding from him or any nasty stuff, im gone get sick . and yes, today im fairly sick.i recalled back what had happened last afternoon, and had to explain to them what actually was taking me over.i hope dad understand but im seriously scared of my mum, she burst out yesterday and only after that 'anger' i've stopped make me realize, who was the jerk that took me over? seriously im very upset with myself now and i didnt know what to do. my parents are away now to johor, and when they come back its time for the big game to start again, a big explanation.my hands are cold half a day already. serious shit! i dont whats wrong with me, i've been thinking bout it eversince i've kept alot of problems in my head and pressure going up.


in school may seemed happy but heart not.not showing it, but im sorry if i show or let go.may at time i need time alone, but dont worry bout me, now im in deep shit, and have to convince of my own big mistake. i really hope i wont let this happen again, and not to my parents especially.im sorry papa & mama ):, not gona show or any, but leave me alone for the time being,

ive got lots to update but no mood for it.not sure how long it takes but but just bare with it.leave me alone and ill heal myself, but if i do anything wrong to speak up to me, so i'll realize it, and causing any trouble.thank you. and bye.

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