i thought i have realize my mistake? yes i did.k,i made a mistake and got scolded from mum and g.mother,and so i felt bad and kept quiet cause im in the wrong.but since yesterday and today,g.mother has been repeating and nagg about my mistake over and over again.how i wish i can stop her but i can't. all i can do is keep quiet,and just bare with it. it's simply irritates me whenever she start to nagg and bringing up the past.because i respect her i dont answer back but sometimes i just need to,but when i do i'll get double. ): it's really hard but being patient.especially when im alone at home with them,as in with grandparents uh..everyone went out to school and work,me left.sometime i think back maybe this is the attitude that folks have.but i find my g.dad diff,he's not like that. he's the forgive and forget and start a fresh.huuuhhhhh.Eversince.i can already sense the difficulties that im gona face.but too bad it will happen.wished i could turn back time,but impossible.now im wondering how long will this have to take.some are great and some are just going with the flow but are some are not,some wants their way.if only i could already get a job ad be out there, well that's the only way to get fresh air. But nothing is happening yet.im always hoping for the best.i dont ask for a reward or anything.never.i just need to go out and be by myself and let it all out


right now the nagg start, i got to go..):
see ya.. enjoy ):

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