best, im now currently at my cousin place to stay here, as parents went malaysia for some reason.had fun here. and so we so called.'camped' till like 2 am. haish , watched movie with niece , but it gets boring you know.then early in the morning, around 12.15 we hunted for food, we four creeped into kitchen for FOOD.garr !! that moment was quiet and dark u see so we played hide and seek ,as if ! :Pso while the two boys *nephew and brother* were listening to some midnight storied on radio,me and niece were trying to sleep, yet they're noisy ! hah! nvm =/ as i was told, that at 1.43 the ridiculous boys were playing the com as they couldnt sleep. wth? =/ okayyy, nvm let's get back.over all it was funover night-ing here. kk this was last night.

now its already 9.25 am haha blogging and also listenig to songs, fun, hee :P went out early to buy some food for granddad. and then niece went for religious class while im gona be stuck at home with the two afiq's , RIGHT =/ haha watched movie, whats was the title......omgarr... i cant believe i forget it when i just watched it an hour ago.... OHH!! child's play quite long ago but cool.

kk i'll update more later, im sure more fun to come :Pkk you people out there enjoy ya holidays okayy or go look for a job...

take care,bye
LOVES,

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hmm.. its been sad these few days. thought i would but can't.one thing, dad changed CPU and all gone gotta restore and everything, sent someone email but never replying or dont wish to.. i dont know.but just getting bad dreams bout it. urgh! i cant stand it any longer.today got move to granny's place and stay there, wth! brother's getting his result,gementar, mine's otw, walao.need to topup.need to go out.i'm just not myself, feeling pain every second. just need to find something new to do.maybe i could hang out with my bestfriends again,if only i could.what else.find a job.get a life.this is freaking boring.FUCK LAHH!!!

f only i can do my own things as have as i wish and everything, this is so sickening.
fuk it fuk it fuk it!!
sometimes i think its too hurtfull to e friendly or bother, cause... they dont even look up on it.and now that everything is gettin worst i had no idea why..havent i had enough??!! jsut stop it lah k..fuck lahh


why do i still....why do i really....why do i even wish too...

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k i had no idea whats going on. whats happening to me. but heard of a shocking thing.why seh.i dont understand why you have to do it. but im missing you, and i still need you. i could still remember, even if its a long time ago. i still love you.as i said from the beginning its hard.real hard. until today, you're still in my mind,not forgetting the happy times.can we still talk? can we still meet? can we still joke? can we can we can we.....urgh. didnt know it'll turn out this way,but didnt expect to go up till this point.

c'mmon;
i still see you
i still dream bout you
i still care for you
i still want you
i still want to be with you
most importantly ;
I STILL LOVE YOU.

minds cracking up, i feel you're there.

Labels: will you still accept me?

today had fun,went out with dad to have lunch w/o scarf like cool uh just track pants and shirt three of us same colour top and bottom. haha best. we shop for groceries and some cat food and bought food for mum. walk around taking some fresh air, was good enough . joked along the way abit of serious talking uh. but still today is the lucky day as i havent go out with dad alone like that ever since .home,watchd a movie as damn bored. dig out all dvd's y'know. waited for mum ro come home.tired yet hapy. then a frustrating news told.Parents leaving this friday to go on a holiday with their bikers to Malaysia,while me and bro will be stuck at grandparents place like for few days and not having any activites, no lappy and prepaids low ahh damn! i gotta to find a way which me and bro will entertain ourselves. cause as you know we can't go out as anything g.parents will update parents .wtf lahh..haish.nvm we'll see how..

Afiq's getting his result this thursday, good luck afiq! :S
Me getting result on the 18 december as chandra said, good luck to me ! :E

kk running out of words will update if i have the time and use it !

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Graduation night was awesome.had fun.first thing first taking photos. it looked grand , schools effort.temasek secondary is the school im gona miss,as i've learned so much in there and studied for a long time.teachers start strolling in at 6.55 and the whole event started at 7.15.that's where the fun begins...shockingly to see the menu ,a total of 9 dish were served but for a table of 10.one meal after another after 10 min? but we ate while watching the slides,performance and the games. vouchers were given away and prizes too.breaks in between me and friends rushed to toilets after two times break as it was cold and so we also put ourselves up. along the way to the restrooms we get to shake hands and wish our other schoolmates.drinks were fill up again once it's alittle.we had a great night, that night is the night that we people are gona treasure most.it all ended at about 10.30 the whole hall was flashy.*camera flashes* took pics with lots of people , fun :D final gdbye to everyone, i was tired really until one pic i took that alight me up again. then decide to go home. tired .feets hurting.bare foot home. took a taxi.reached home about 1am

temasekians do look charming that night! stay charming all the way people!

Labels: what night we can have.

stay charming as you are,me your class manager and friend will always love and miss you :(

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YAY!! TODAY'S THE DAY..GRADUATION NIGHT!!...

gona put on the dress which idra chose for me!what do i look like sah?..

gona take alot of pics!

excited!

yet sad!!

arghh enjoy people!! dinner!!!

yayy! today's the 11 of Nov, i feel happy and touched. O's candidate's are free today. ape lagi, enjoy uh girl.what has it got to do with me??hahaha wish to hang out with my faizah(: can't wait for 13 too.. bestfriends are on the loose.shopping mall here we come!!
well went to grandma place and apologize for a mistake which i really dont know if it's my fault.came back home about three minutes, brother came home. after 15 minutes. mum came home. great!!.hahah upload new pic,and edited(only resize,heh:D )
Grad night's on the 14, that's why we girls are out the day before,what else shopping, oh i miss hanging out with my girls :( it's been long.im sure all we gona have is funfunfun,hee :D. im sure my girls will look good on grad night. :D
ALRIGHT !! let' the fun begin...gahh! hungry go eat now.

bye ! :D

Labels: what a day to remember alot :)

YAYY!! graduation night is coming. before, havent got any outfit, but thanks to KAK FARAHLIYANA.thanks kak!! i really appreciate lots. you're my saviour. but still got to be alert . haish.. i hope i look good , heh(:

family. everything' kinda changing it's ok, but i hope it carry on to be better uh.thank god.yayy! dress.dress.dress.sexaay... hahah jus excited for graduation night. and also this coming thursday gona hang out with idra and temi and lutfi!!. let's have fun people.

ahh. just in a gd mood.very well.. still waiting for job siaa..thanks alot people who helped me. i love you lots. faizah you're secret book like.diary. ahhh i love you faizah!kk nthn else.


bye ah.

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havent use the com for two days. and now blogging again.

am family has not been going well ,worsen.big dispute occured,i go crazy,mum,grandparents cried and raising their voices.

got sick and high fever.i want all this to stop,really.i can't stand it. why must all this happen sia.i want my old life back. no fights and arguements.

it seems like i just loose everything slowly one by one.i can't afford anymore.very painful.never thought i'll have all this.

i just wish there's someone who could take all this away.

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i thought i have realize my mistake? yes i did.k,i made a mistake and got scolded from mum and g.mother,and so i felt bad and kept quiet cause im in the wrong.but since yesterday and today,g.mother has been repeating and nagg about my mistake over and over again.how i wish i can stop her but i can't. all i can do is keep quiet,and just bare with it. it's simply irritates me whenever she start to nagg and bringing up the past.because i respect her i dont answer back but sometimes i just need to,but when i do i'll get double. ): it's really hard but being patient.especially when im alone at home with them,as in with grandparents uh..everyone went out to school and work,me left.sometime i think back maybe this is the attitude that folks have.but i find my g.dad diff,he's not like that. he's the forgive and forget and start a fresh.huuuhhhhh.Eversince.i can already sense the difficulties that im gona face.but too bad it will happen.wished i could turn back time,but impossible.now im wondering how long will this have to take.some are great and some are just going with the flow but are some are not,some wants their way.if only i could already get a job ad be out there, well that's the only way to get fresh air. But nothing is happening yet.im always hoping for the best.i dont ask for a reward or anything.never.i just need to go out and be by myself and let it all out


right now the nagg start, i got to go..):
see ya.. enjoy ):

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cleared my house,rooms,cook and serving my g.parents and now just relaxing, got headaches.but kept quiet.well.. just chatting now. finish eating.

grandma's sick feeling very bad. gotta take care of her before anything happens. urgh why does my life turn out this way?. only god knows. =/

gotta get back to work again. taking care of my grandparents is rally tiring but never regret it.till then..ill update more cant use the com too often now..lots to do

take care and treasure the ones you love before they leave.please:(

hah...ape ahh?mum gave green light to change myself.baik ah.
coloured, completed, left with a few more.understand?
need a new phone!it's really pissing dokk.
it ain't easy living in a world war 3, never know what a love would be, you'll see...

kk just stop for awhile must continue working.wahhh..tired sah...
kk kepapekipekuchiowchinchowblajdkjafirubhgtjksnguerbv


forbidden kingdom; best!

today as usual companied g.dad to bedok get stuff.=/ lots of things to settle.just wished at least someone could help me.):

it seems life is getting tougher huh.more challenges that are just gona happen.got back home and scolded .nvm.still waiting for call.hurry!No one is so accursed by fate.

kk im all thinking bout things . trying to solve them.btw when you getting your liner dokk? nvm just hold on till you're free.

idra talk to you soon yeh):

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been watching star wars movie lately .cause of my brother. i find kungfu interesting for forbidden kingdom, battle interesting for star was. hahaha it's just something really you would want to try.I'll try.. one fine day..


ahahah,seems like everyday i'll get tired, cause have to get grandma needs,in and out.cousins have been asking am i coming for the 'shifting night'.blurgh! nvm. working hard fiqa!(:still wondering how is he,i do.been buying lots of stuffs.


waiting for a call. and get that the approval to kill time.bored at home.really.please lahh."hope you're fine,be patient, miss you,friends forever!i promise you(: "


byebye(:

tired. first got hurried to company my granddad to bedok.k thats fine..reached bedok at about 1.30 mum called and asked g.dad to rest and i have to go buy food, while im out i search for skinnies. and found bought black and green*i got green idra*k nvm.

found out that i have to carry much more stuff and heavy to pasir ris.i was told alittle but then much more way more..gosh what was g.dad thinking but nvm. helped and chest pain came as i ran up and down carrying heavy stuff ,then ran out to catch a taxi,started raining.sweating.add on to the rain.fun uh,bathing with dirty water.shit =/

reached home rest,couldnt eat,out of breathe.showed mum and dad what i've bought , sleep together tvo-ing.weird.but yes.rest rest rest. dad finished with com, my turn, thats why this post is post! haaa. k nvm

now,listening to music,relaxing

k dah..

take care uh k?