From the previous post i've written "Everything sucks! " well you should that is true.Things sucks nowadays, especially when a special is around the corner but you're just not getting what you want.This coming Wednesday is my birthday.But i think is going to be the worst and hell-like birthday celebration.Just going to stay in my own room and watch all kinds of DVD's or movies i can find.i know.BORING!

Aku ble jadi gila duduk rumah untuk 7 bulan straight.Ape nak jadi pun aku tak tau.Nti aku kat dalam bilik je, kau mengamok, tk suka, nak amik hp,ckp uat bill.pastu masih terperuk dlm bilik nak amik tv, tk tau tgk tv kt lua sama2, pastu ape katil? KLAKAR SIAK!

The problem is i've got no vacancy. So stop pestering me.What can i do, the school say no means no lah, if already school cant accept, what more poly.. don't be ridiculous.i want private O can? complain bout the cost.SO? tell me uh tell me! And now im stuck at home for like the whole of 7months.no money don't come to me.

Fucking bullshit!

im out of here!FYCK!

Alot had got into our way, as you know.Now..maybe its slowly stopping,but maybe are okay for you, but its not right for me.Im sorry

Obviously,what's getting on my nerves is your work.Poor organised shift schedule.super poor and pathetic.Never heard of a working place with this kind of last minute schedule.HA HA

And its also obvious that both making an effort to take the midnight meets.But very sorry had to leave early.well, i would rather REACH HOME EARLY AND MEET MORE THAN MEET FOR A LONGER TIME AND ONLY ONCE(:

Seriously..i dont know what else to say.What I do , i still don't feel satisfied. Just look at your shitty work place,its super nonsensical siaa! i still don't understand why is it like that, and worst you don't even know your schedule, you own schedule!

Im out of words! seriously! What else can go wrong! I hate this! i truly hate this!\
I want to leave you to grab your own happiness and find someone who can actually give you your peace of mind,you dont want that and i dont understand why.i have enough of hurting you.cant you see that im posting bout me being so agitated of hurting you and not you hurting me?can you?? ya allah, im going crazy you knoooooow!

JUST STOP EVERYTHING!! *cries*

Yes, long time since i last update.

Lots happened,and still sober.Damn right,im still struggling to get through it with patience.
But it keeps coming on and on.Just having a hard time for now, like right na,this month .*so much for a new year*

Having extra number coming to my house.Clearly known EXTRA WORK.
Patience is all i need..strength too..IM FED UP D:

Work? Been doing night shift, now as yup above...seriously seh... bingit tau! bingit!
Doing work at night especially when other workers don't wish to co-operate and keep ordering others , things that can be done quick and end early slows down, she is who i meant, in her own world and thinking she's got the rank! puh-lease! you can dream on okay?C:
As for you..
Lots been coming between us, and i know its hard. Harder for me as you know im weak.Everything i said, its harsh and i may mean what i say,not like you just know me yesterday,you know pretty well.So now i should say,i make it sound harsh but i dont mean what i say.it hurts me alot when i dont get what i want from you or with you. And that's when small think it became a fuss ,FOR ME. i know, just bare with it, But you've changed to what i see.Honestly, you've change into a different shit! And i hate that!I hate who the hell you are now! you get it! Im strong with other and outside away from you,but when im in front of you, im like total WEAK bitch! You're a non caring person with me now.you just heck care with me.you dont entertain me anymore. you dont tell me things. you lie to me.you pushed me aside.you prioritise work before me!what the fuck am i to you?you're not him anymore!you dont change,you get out of my fucked up alright?!thanks for what you've done and what i said otp, you got what you want.Idk what else to say lah...
can we cut this crap? can we end this? can we forget it? can we start afresh? can just... STOP IT! ??? CAN WE??? I LOVE YOU OKAY I DO!